FrozenAgainst

The guy I mentioned in the last entry um I'm not sure that I have a crush on him anymore. Well I probably do. But it's lessened. At the same time I did suspect that I had a crush on this other girl (who I also know online) ... And now I'm certain that I like her. It's ridiculous really. How much has changed. It's frustrating how much I'm falling for her. Whenever I see romantic quotes or whatever I think of her. Before I didn't even like seeing those much. And now they're just cute and I look at them differently really... I guess she's changed my outlook on that, haha. So I feel like a stupid teenage girl with a crush OTL. I think

Off the front anyway. Sometimes I try talking to her and it's really awkward. I got a message from her first the other day but only because she was asking if I knew this one person's birthday. I was happy to help of course. And happy that she asked me. But I miss roleplaying with her. Which is how we usually talked before. I sent her a message today to ask what pronouns they prefer. She said either is fine, though she does have a preference for male pronouns. Which is what I thought. I guess I could just tell... So from this point forward, I'll refer to him as male here. At least 90% of the time. Maybe sometimes I'll slip or something. B

I'm hardly bothering with grammar and shit on even my main accounts where I usually do so why bother here . . . . but bluh I'm just sadlgkjfn sunday school is shit because today we got to hear about how sacramental marriages have to have three things and one of the three is willingness to have children and I hate that because I don't want to bear children (unless spouse REALLY wants me to) regardless of the gender of whoever I want to marry in the future. if anyone. I told myself that if I marry a guy we would hopefully adopt idk and the church probably that doesn't count idk. it's just so stupid. there are already seven billion people